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Thursday, December 24th, 2009

armando

2:25a fuck you i had a dream about you last night. i dont know why i still dream that you will come back to me. i know in reality i would never take your skanky slutty ass back but i guess i just hope for that day to come. i dont know. these holiday times just make me depressed and shitty. i wish i could sleep through them. sleep a good sleep where i dont dream and im just....dead, i suppose you could say. im back to not feeling again and losing weight. im afraid im going to go back to my old ways. i just read something a good friend of mine said and its along the lines of not fearing death anymore but welcoming it. its not a quote but along those lines. lately i havent been feeling good and it has been seeming like the end is near. my palpitations are back and my chest feels funny. am i one of those mysterious deaths that happens out of nowhere? hah. we'll see i suppose. i hate the holidays. i hate seeing people holding hands and smiling and kissing and seeing all this joy in there fuckin eyes. its me being selfish though. misery is the only thing in me eyes. im getting pretty sick of it. i long for that kiss that means something. that kiss that sparks something in your stomach and makes your entire body tingle. on another note, im really happy that i am not getting drunk every day due to my shitty mood. i havent been drunk in a while actually. im proud of myself. drinking just makes me more shitty and right now i dont need that. fuck knows what would happen then. i guess in times like these i need my friends and i am thankful for all of them that are helping me, even though they have no idea that they really are. fuck

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Tuesday, December 15th, 2009

toughschmidt

5:12a Let me ruin the ending of Silent Hill for the Wii You get all the way near the end. You go into this carnival thing trying to get to a lighthouse. You pull out your WiiPhone to take a picture, and you get a message saying your save file is corrupt and then you can't put your phone away. The end. You have to reset your Wii, and your save is now gone. Talk about Shattered Memories. current mood: Augh!

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